HOW TO STAY YOUNG
1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height.Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay them.2. Keep only cheerful friends.The grouches pull you down. (keep this In mind if you are one of those grouches;)3. Keep learning:Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening,whatever. Never let the brain get idle."An idle mind is the devil's workshop."And the devil's name is Alzheimer's!4. Enjoy the simple things.5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath. And if you have a friend who makes you laugh, spend lots and Lots of time with HIM/HER.6. The tears happen:Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person who is with us our entire life, is yourself. LIVE while you are alive.7. Surround yourself with what you love:Whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your refuge.8. Cherish your health:If it is good, preserve it. if it is unstable, improve it.If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.9. Don't take guilt trips.Take a trip to the mall, even to the next county, to a foreign country, but NOT to where the guilt is.10. Tell the people you loved that you love them, at every opportunity. And if you don't send this to at least 4 people - who cares? LOL. But do share this with someone.
Last night, i was dreaming
gosh, dreamt abt him again last nite. something abt us going out and having a great time. he looking at me in adoration, and my heart went bump bump bump.. 'xiao lu luan zhuang'.. gasp, dreamlover, come rescue me...
B Day
Is a very very very very happy day for me today. Received the letter from lao ban. Cos my expectation was v low, so when i saw it, i was so confused that i dont know how to read. so have to ask him to explain to me... hee! Funny, he must think i'm such a goondu!
Contemplations
Mum told me she has the same dream abt me and moo breaking up. only mentioned it when i told her abt the dream i had last night, think she wouldnt have told me if i havent told her mine..
anyway, just wonder.. after finished talking to moo last night, he was just going to hang up and i said he doesnt say he luvs me anymore. he just went "yah." so i went "yah." too and hung up. when we just started out, he would have said it or text me after we hung up. now he doesnt...
If i have really been searching for a reason to break up, that would have been it.. but i know he still does.. at least, i think so.. truth is, maybe feelings have died for us.. or stablised.. maybe it is the time that we do not have to constantly say we luv each other, but we should know and take it for granted?!?! but as i've always been a literal person, what he doesnt say will leave me guessing and wondering.. have we fallen out of luv? when he does say it, is it a habit or obligation?
maybe he does luv me, but he cannot afford it.. with his new job, unsettled career, and generally being a young upstart which for a 29yr old, is someone who should be concentrating fully on his career, and is the best time to do it.. does he feel that i'm a liability holding him back, taking up time he could use elsewhere? does he find caring for me a burden?
my mum says not to waste my time if there is no progress, but question: what do i want?
MY big cow
Was asking my colleague something about why some things are done like that. office was quiet though there were people around.. she said loudly "YOUR daniu also like that! Another a/c under (the MA's name) is like that."
Wah lau! also hee hee! people here put 2 and 2 together, can start a bushfire about us liao.. old story or not...
An Italian Mafia Love Story
She was a simple girl from an average family, has a sweetheart whom she was going to marry.. Pretty, girl-next-door looks.He was the only son from the most powerful Mafia family, dark, handsome and stocky..
Together with other young ladies, she was summoned before his family who wanted to get him a wife, someone who's proper, from a good average family so that their reputation can be elevated and reduce the authorities' tracking of them.
They selected her, and there's nothing she can go for refusal would mean difficulties for her family. Either The Family could murder her family and make it seem like an accident, or they could make them go bankrupt and desperate.
So she married him. She doesnt know what he does for a living or what other things he does outside of work. Although he is aloof and not affectionate, he does show concern for her in his own way.
Like there was once she was staying with her parents for a week and she got sick during that time, he took the time to buy and deliver the medicine to her. Also fed her himself. Was then the mother reminded her that she must tell her sweetheart, that she is now married. She broke down then cos she realised she has not told him yet, and doesnt know how to tell him. There's no way she wont break his heart. Was extremely upset at why life and fate treat her this way.
She called him to break the news. As predicted, his heart broke. Their lives are forever changed by this whims of The Family. And they did not want to keep in contact after that.
15 yrs later, she received news that her husband had died. Again, how, she did not know. At age 37, she is now a widow.
One day, she met her sweetheart on the streets. Things were awkard between them at first. But then, he learnt of the death. He never got married cos he has always been waiting for her, and she is the only one for him. So finally, they can be together again...
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Woke up with a strange ache in my heart. cos in the dream, I was the gal and moo is the sweetheart. Ended up wondering what the dream signified, as i usually do when i'm personally involved in the dream. It's so real and i know we both will feel the same heartbreak if something like this happen to us in real life...
Dreaming of having a 3rd party, hmm.. I know next yr, i have peach blossom luck, or curse. So is this a premonition?
Who wants to be famous?
As a favour to colleague's fren who owns this restaurant Penang Kitchen near Coronation Plaza, we were notified to go for lunch there last minute. Be one of the customers there, and maybe give interviews. so there we were, with the hosts AP, BL and special guest Irene Ang.
How did they get on the show? it turned out one of the producers ate there, and thought it was v gd. and the taping is free, just PK has to provide the food lor..
Watching the whole program taped there, was interesting lah.. her eyes super-big, and the lashes fake and very very long.. She really doesnt talk like that in real life lah, but when taping, all the cuteness (and AP's) comes out.. IA is very friendly and th eonly one to smile at us when we walked in..
We were given the signature dishes to eat.. Belachan chicken, chay kway teow, duck mee sua, mango salad and many more.. so full lor.. we also finished eating when BL wanted to interview me.. they only wanted chinese-speaking, and all the bombastic words went over my head.. they wanted me to be able to describe how the food tasted besides 'very good, very nice'.. BL asked me what i liked best, and it was the chicken wing which i had finshed, so they filmed the chicken bone!!
i did my best lah, but not surprised if they censor my part and put my another coll's one in... cos she's more descriptive despite the fact she insisted she is shy and cannot speak chinese well.. AP is the better interviewer lah, he's more animated...
My 5 sec of fame, hehe, hopefully.. thankfully, i was wearing nice suit... we laughed and laughed the way they talked and I asked around before the taping whether got food stuck in my teeth,... scarly, later u see the black pepper or bean sprouts occupying the TV screen!!
hope show will air, think, the week after CNY... cannot wait for it to air, wonder who will come hound us about it..
Quirks Me
Or kinkiness.. hee!
1) My nose gets itchy if i eat something sweet on an empty stomach in the morning.. Has been proven with chocolates, ice-
cream and simply sweets.. strange, dont know what's the diagnosis.. sometimes, i'm concerned if it's diabetes..2) When i eat battered chicken or fish & chips, i will remove the batter, that layer of fried flour.. Esp Long John Silver's one. If the fish is breaded, then nothing i can do..3) No vegetable that are not green for me.. can accept carrots, capsicums.. but not purple brinjals..4) The ability to truncate my speech to such an extent my frens take time to understand me. Sometimes, luckily, moo understands.. also happens when i type chat...eg 1: one time with moo, i want to tell him not to blow air at me cos his mouth stank. so i said "dont, smell." he was like "huh?" then after he said " dont, see." cos ahead of us there was something that he joked he didnt want me to see..
eg. 2: another time wanted to remind moo to top up his cash card, somehow, ended up saying "top card." but somehow, he understood me lah..
usually such incidents happen after office hours and during weekends.. so my excuse is my brain is on off-peak or weekend mode, so dont think so much lah.. my pronounciation can get v bad, esp in this company, saying things like 'bleg' instead of 'leg'.. oh, but he does take such delight in pointing out and reminding it to me every chance he gets..
5) Dont like to make appointments or reservations.. prefer frens to do it, or walk-in.. unless place is popular..6) Dont like to miss the previews and ads at start of movie in cinemas. obviously, cos they'll usually be the full lengths that you cannot catch on TV.. recently, there are also a lot of bonus shots before start of movie..7) Dont eat pork chop, pig innates, pork without any seasoning.. but will eat pork balls, my mum's yong tau foo, crispy pork skin...8) When eating 'bai' chicken, will remove skin.. but when eating 'sao' chicken, will not do the same..9) Dont like to make phone calls at all, will chat, sms, email.. prefer to think it's my innate shyness..10) The strange inability to pronounce the word 'piranha' at 1st try, no matter how many times moo told me... takes at least 3-5 tries to get it right.. but think progressively, i'm getting it faster...Whoever reading this blog, can put yours down on your own blog and give the blog link, will be fun...
Woozy doozy batty
Feeling a bit giddy due to lack of sleep. after watching ANTM last night, for some reason, was wide awake and took some time to sleep.
Dont you just love this show? Although some may find it crappy. but it's just deliciously bitchy and downright farny to me sometimes.. however, just finding it more and more urghy to see TB always having that same solemn expression and always saying the same thing during the judging;
"I have 8 beautiful gals standing before me, and i only have 7 photos. These 7 photos represent the 7 gals that will go on to the next round of becoming ANTM."Duh. feels more and more like she's on sesame street, learning how to count. can imagine her going;
" 1 model.. whahahaaha!2 model... whahahaha!"Then thunder sounds and lightening flashes.. she morphs into count dracula and bats start flying around... what a sight that will be!!!
Pet Peeves
1) When people sneeze or cough behind me on the bus and in the train, most esp when i just wash my hair. just imagine the germs flying to and sticking onto my clean hair!!
2) When my poop causes an impact high enough to splash my 'there' parts.. urghs! there's almost an art to doing this correctly, just gentle gentle squeeze softer and try to slide it in like an chinese olympic diver.. but difficult to execute correctly sometimes...
3) Calling people up to make a social appointment.. Think it's a conditioning since school days when i was so keen to chiong, and always jio frens. but since most frens were attached, they usually didnt want to go. hence, i started to get a abberation to initiate anything.
4) People who break their dates at last minute, forcing me to suddenly have that free time to have nothing to do or is too late to do anything.
5) Shrill voices, eg. my mum.. most times, i can tolerate it. but if it's too long and i'm tired, i get annoyed and get a headache..
6) People with hearing problem, cos i just dont like to repeat myself.
7) MO or BO ie. mouth or body odour. Think my nose is extremely sensitve, sometimes i can smell those people whom frens beside me cannot smell.
8) Stingy or calculative people.
9) Wishy-washiness. am forced to be guilty of that sometimes, cos when trying to be nice instead of pushy, i let others decide, hum-and-haw for the longest time.. when i couldnt stand it, i'll just cut in and make decision for them.. Most times, i pretty get my way.. hee! Sometimes, just to come across as being diplomat, i'll start by saying "why dont we.. " so that any decision made will seem made by all of us, rather than me who has suggested and veto it alone..
People who also beat around the bush and doesnt get to the main point. i get impatient when i know what they are going to talk about, i finish the sentence for them..
Also people who asks me to do something but never tell me exactly what, then having to resort to 2nd guesses..
10) Kids behaving badly, are noisy and spoilt... those that sit on supermarket floors to cry when they dont get their way, eat or swing around the poles in trains.. worse are when the parents dont know how to teach them.. some have the audacity to spoil them by saying things like "dont'cry dont cry, later mummy buy sweets/toys for you, okay??"
Also bad are the parents who let their kids stand on the seats in buses or trains, even on rainy days.. once witnessed such a thing on rainy day, the mother didnt care that the kid's shoes were wet!!
Cant resist adding 1 more to my top 10..
11) 'Stone lions' who stand inside or outside train doors, refuse to move when many people want to come in or get out, then have the silliness to complain and make the 'tsk tsk' noises when said people push their way in/out..
I am what I am
| You Should Be A Sagittarius |
 What's good about you: bold and adventure loving, life is one big party for you
What's bad about you: you don't think before speaking - and you often regret it!
In love: you're flirtatiously playful, but you never play games
In friendship, you're: the one who keeps everyone laughing
Your ideal job: fortune teller, philosopher, or athlete
Your sense of fashion: your own mix of vintage and new pieces
You like to pig out on: anything you haven't tried before |
Let down
Was so looking forward to going to MacRitchie today.. can u believe that i've never been there? frens said that they went there on expedition when they were in primary or sec school, but mine never brought me there.. just like i get my triangle milk once a month instead of every week..
when i received the message late last night that the outing was off, i wasn't surprised. cos seldom now do we make plans and go out successfully.. but even though i have expected it, i still felt let down.. why is this being done to me again? 9 out of 10 times, it just doesnt work out... set myself such a high anticipation only to fall so hard... why is it so difficult to just make a succcessful outing nowadays.. so i know i have to blog this out to make myself feel better...
is it just me, or have such code of conduct change? i mean, when i make a promise, i make sure i keep it. i dont over-promise to make people happy, and if i cant make it, it's either i'm really sick or choy! i have an accident.. and i will def set aside that time to fulfill that promise, no matter then whether i still feel like going or not.. if i really dont want to go, i'll tell them i dont want to go.. think most of my close colls already know i'm not a movie person, and it's great that they still take the effort to ask everytime they want to watch something.. it's all about being open and managing expectations, something sensical we learnt in marketing...
There goes what would have been a beautiful sunday.. kind of late for me to make other plans.. pls understand my feelings.. on the surface, i may say things that are very 'can de kai', 'never mind never mind' but inside i'm really miserable..
Got the tickle, again..
yawn, sleepy.. recovering from cough, swollen eyes, and sensitive nose which makes it and my throat itch very badly.. vicious cycle.. cos it also indrectly caused my eyes to swell, so now i'm not sure it's just allergic conjunutiva.. confused... slept 4hr yday afternoon on MC, turned out at night, i was awake more than asleep... curse! paimia, is it? sleep so badly that i fall sick, yet cannot sleep too much.... luckily weekend liao..
moo is away, so i'm extremely lonely.. unless manage to ask someone out, so someone asks me out.. dont care who, will just go.. haha!!
Cool!
| You Are a Classic Beauty! |
 You have a timeless beauty that looks great in every decadeInstead following trends, you stick to what worksAnd this means you never skimp on your beauty routineUpside? Your classic looks tends to attract gentlemen - not boys. |
What Type of Beauty Are You?
The Eruption
saw more spewing today.. if she is a volcano, i can imagine all the lava flowing over the top to the bottom, destroying all the villages and their people.. haha! then the black smoke will rise up high to the sky, killing all the unlucky birds.. then one-by-one, it's raining birds... hee!!
OOOooppss...
oh no, have i started a warfare amongst the group? saw a very vehement blog by DL, and wonder if i have talked too much.. cos frens for so long, dont want to spoil anything.. if the party in question reads abt and guess correctly is her, i wonder what will happen...
do agree with her on the part on 'my blog, my personal space, my say'.. surety, it's on public domain, but if the person doesnt like what's being said, dont read lor.. everyone's entitled to their own opinion, short of serious libel lah...
but is it me, or are some people just so hyper sensitive nowadays? kicking up a fuss or feeling offended too easily... somemore, over things sometimes not their own... sigh... feel sian, why so many people so prim and proper? are they really like that, or following the peers? makes me wonder.. and isnt life boring without outrageous and daring people doing well, outrageous and daring stuff???
DL, hush hush... hope u feel better (like i did, even if a little bit) after your own pang sai..
Pig pig pig..
The alarm clock for the pig rang the whole nite last nite. unbelieveable!!! started from around 10.30pm to 4-5am. cos everytime i woke up, it's still ringing...
Letter to a 'Good' Fren
Dear V,
I thought we are gd frens, but time and time again, i heard upsetting things that u have been saying about me to other people.
Just today, moo told me he heard from a 'mutual fren' about the VAT claim we made during our trip together in Aug. 'mutual fren' said that i did not include urs and mango's purchases for the VAT claim, just cos i have enough spending myself to meet the minimum claim.. Gosh!! how it came across now this 'mutual fren' must have thought i'm such a selfish person.. the only recollection that i could make was that time we were at MBK together.. i walked ahead to the VAT claim counter, & u had to call me back to wait for u and mango to claim together cos u both didnt have enough..
Goodness! such SMALL things happen... u should know by our years of frenship, i could be quite a forgetful person, & admittedly, not considerate sometimes.. but dont u think it's such a small matter to harp on??
Or were u sore about the incident at the airport when me and mango were frustrated with u cos u were convinced that the VAT custom shortchanged your VAT claim.. u were recalculating and recalculating that few dollars that both of us kept imploring u 'never mind never mind' only to have u snapped back at us to 'shut up'. finally we got impatient & walked off to order food... c'mon, if it helped, i would have offered to give up my share of the claim.. but do u hear me talking about this incident to other frens??
Then there was the other time when we had dinner together, think last year, at Jack's Place.. u and your other half were going on about the renovations for the new place, saying that the lights were only paid for with $1200, very cheap.. how u both drove around S'pore to look for the best bargains, how he is a good negotiator..
I commented that i want to order a pool table for my own new place so that our frens can come over to play.. later u told someone that u felt i was bragging! about what, i have no idea... but think about it, bragging is bragging whether it's about being extravagent, or be it about how cheap a deal u can get.. cos honestly, for a while there, u were bragging too.... & i didnt even think it like that until someone concurred with me.. so there!! maybe had i offered to give my VAT claim to u, u would also think i'm extravagent and bragging..
End of that day, it's back to square one.. cos ur contractor (who came highly recommended by his brother) took off with your thou$and$.. think about the implication of that...
Finally, about more than 2 1/2 yrs ago, when i just got to know moo, and u knew him not too long ago, u told him not to get himself taken advantage of by me. at that time, i had just broken off with my ex and moo had become a closer fren to me, always bringing me out for supper and going out together..
Geez, if i dont know any better, i would think he was your good fren more than yours truly of more than 8 yrs now..
What have i ever done to you? u are not me, dont claim u know me 100%. u see, i'm a very literal person, not everyone knows how truly open-minded i can be.. if a guy doesnt tell me out loud that he is interested in me, i will not assume i know.. everything has to be black and white to me.. too many times before, i have been interested in someone, but that someone is not interested in me back. i had my 1st BF at the grand old age of 24/25, hence unlike u, i'm not so smart in that sense... moreover, i was jobless while he was working afternoon shifts sometimes. we both did not have to wake up early the next day so naturally, we could go out for suppers..
At that time, u also told me not to give him the wrong idea if i'm not interested in him back. and i told u the same thing, and how he may not be interested in me in that sense. in fact, i was convinced he was interested in u. u knew him 1st, & he also fetched u to/from from work & buy u food. but did it occur to u some could think that's also a kind of taking advantage??
Do u still rem who was the one who accompanied u to meet all the guys u knew thru ICQ? did i say anything bad to anyone when u were going out with that T guy while still attached? i dont discriminate or discredit u... cos u are my fren..
U are just not the gal i used to know anymore, but despite that, i'm still your fren.. and it hurts me everytime i heard what was said to other frens in our group. no chance to defend myself or give my version of the story. pls be fair, next time if u are unhappy with something about me, come to me first so that i can explain. if not, i wonder how the other gals in the group are thinking about my character.
I know recently, i have less and less contact with the group. u may even think i'm less of a fren, or i dont make the effort anymore. but believe me, i have my fair share of initiating. u have even mentioned before u felt u had a bit to blame cos many times during schooldays , i tried to jio u all out so many times, but i always get rejected. understandably, cos u were attached & i was not. hence now, i've been burnt bad enough by this group to stop initiating outings altogether.. so since now u do not know me as well, i think u shouldnt be saying so many derogatory things about me..
Similarly, if your current circumstance has forced u to be prudent, dont be bitter about it and dont force the same standards on your frens.. u dont have to be defensive about it, cos no one minds.. dont let your need for permanence take away your once independent and headstrong personality. but on the other hand, i beg to defer, u had $$ to buy a LV wallet.
Think now, i will have 2nd thoughts going out with all of you. cos who else, i would earn a blacker reputation weeks or months down the road.
Maybe the person who carried the stories misinterpreted the info, it still hurts everytime that u would mention such things to them. pls rem i dont talk to them as often as u do and i dont know them as well as u do, so when it comes to taking sides or discrediting one of us, of course, they will lean more towards u.
Lastly, your present is mocking at me everytime i see it. i have ripped away the pig called "Peggy" and was going to throw the whole thing away. but before i do that, i just might show it to mutual frens so that they know how a person who can afford a LV wallet could get such a present for a fren of 8yrs.. am sure it's not a deliberate choice but it's sure not a considerate one. cos i have mentioned about the types of present i want, and it wouldnt cost much too.
I hope that i have vented my anger here. and hope i can continue to see u as a good fren. i shall have to protect myself and harden my heart, so in case i hear something else again, i wont be so upset. maybe i have been too nice, that's why pple feel they can get off saying such stuff abt me. in fact, think if i do hear something that's not the whole truth again, i just may give the same courtesy u have shown so far and i wont hesitate to confront anybody to set things straight. eventually i lose your friendship, so be it. who knows, i wont be so heartsore anymore...
Your Truly (as always.)
Meak
Let's Get Started...
Shopping on the 1st day 2006.. predictable!
had to get new running shoes.. last week, ran till the sole fell out.. not that i ran very far lah! but this pair had been with me almost 4-5 yrs.. blink of an eye@@ still remembered i bought it with monster last time..
Went to Nike, Adidas, Royal Sporting House and Puma.. ideally, wanted a pair of black ones so that it goes with most everything i have.. the only design i like is at Puma, but my size had run out in black.. the gold ones were really nice too, but told Moo was worried it is too flashy.. he said he thought i like flashy.. true enough, but...
walked around a bit more, but kept think of the flashy shoes. really liked it, cos no other outlet has it anymore and it's on discount 10%.. so heck! went back to the shop to get it.. so here it is...
really nice, right! sure it's not v versatile, not sure what colour socks can go.. but i like the black panther against the gold background.. also it fits nicely to the feet.. looking GOOD!! hee...
Good bye 2005, Hello 2006!
As per tradition for last few yrs, celebrated
ST's birthday at her house. before that, i was coll's Steph place at juring west.. was comical getting to that ulu place.. after picking zhanglao, SS and EC from Boon Lay station, we tried to find our way there. on one hand, ZL was on the line with steph who kept telling her we were very far away. on the other hand, SS was on the line with her BF who's looking at a phone dir giving us directions. under the instigation of EC, had to make an illegal u-turn. alamak! narrow road, plus slope plus yellow box. car slided in front though i already switched to reverse gear.. panicked! oncoming traffic coming! ZL then announced there's a police car too! turned out we were doing this in front of a police station.. was so scared i'm going to get booked.. haiyoh! felt the blood draining from my face and my foot was trembling on the clutch!!luckily the policeman didnt bleep me, police car turned left while i turned right.. ZL laughed as she recounted the look on the policeman's face. like what audacity we have to do this in front of him and his office! Haha! think if he was to stop us and see us 4 very hysterical females, he might have taken pity of us and let us off too... finally reached steph's place, duh! not that far at all since it was only next street. she made really good hawaiian pizza from scratch.. years of having her husband's MJ frens as guinea pigs.. ha! we are so lucky... then it's time to get down to serious business.. of MJ! what else!! fantastic luck for me.. kept winning big between 3 to 4pm which made me realised it must be my lucky time cos last time i also won during this 'shi chen'.. they complained i very 'xiong' cos was once i full 5 'tais' but still 'zi muo'.. so they all have to paid the max... :) i was grinning from ear-to-ear.. later at ST's place, also had home-made pizzas.. quite good too, except for the salmon one, very salty.. her birthday cake is lana's with almond ice-cream.. sinful and good! Mango wa late and when NT called her, teased that she is welcome to bring the whoever guy she is with.. but as it turned out it was due to her hair appointment and she looked good.. we both agreed the older we get, the higher maintenance we need.. dinner conversation was around gym membership. turned out all of them now have signed up for some gym or the other.. surprisingly even mango gave it a try.. sigh!! moving with the trend, quite predictable.. after dinner, we headed down to Bala.. of all places, they wanted to chill there.. was expecting a huge crowd as it always is on weekdays, and it's proximity to Esplanade.. but i was totally wrong.. we reached there 10pm+ and still managed to get huge sofa seats inside and later 11pm, outside.. Fireworks at 12mn.. toturous.. could hear the sound and see the smoke reflecting the colours of the rockets.. but we were blocked for Raffles LInk and later Marina Mandarin hotel.. could only see the stray explosions and we lapped them up anyway...HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
