Saturday, April 16, 2005

Rabbit's foot

Slow start to a slow day. Went to Tper's last night, cos it is supposed to be the most happening in place right now. In fact, it won the 2004 best nightspot. Didn't know that that place takes its name from a rabbit, you know that one from Bambi who was a bit amorous and likes to thump its foot when he saw a female rabbit. Like that character a lot, cuter than Bambi.

It was very crowded. Well, at first, the crowd was quite aloof, stiff and conservative. Cos, there was a SC event going on. M's friend who was in the bank, managed to get us his colleagues' namecards so that we can go in earlier. Doesn't matter, they still let the public in, just that you couldn't go to the mainspot.

The band was not very good, each set lasts an hour which was a bit too long. The lead guy is a bit bleh.. Not very cool, but acting like he is.. Give me D B anytime, the crowd there is more my type.

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Tuesday, April 12, 2005

I see dead people

Feels like Sixth Sense all over again today, except I don't see ghosts, I see dead bodies. The fatal location was just in front of my secondary school's best friend's father's motor shop. On the way back from work, saw another accident less than 500m from the spot where I last saw an accident on Saturday. Mercifully, at least this time, the body was fully covered.

Very bad luck to see this twice in a week, must remind myself to go temple this weekend to pray. Many things going unsuccessfully this week, mostly my project. So it wasn't too reassuring that things can get better when I see such things twice in a week, when usually you don't in a very long time.

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Sunday, April 10, 2005

Brain matters

Wan Bao reported the accident this night. Was a 20 year old NS man who was hit. His bike skidded and when he fell on the ground, a bus ran over his head. It was reported the scene was quite terrifying as all this brain matter and blood were splattered in the ground.

He was supposed to study computer science come July 2005. Alas, he can never make it now. Pitiful...

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Saturday, April 09, 2005

Accidental tragedy

Saw a horrific accident near my place this afternoon. The body passed by my side of the bus and I could see the blood and a pair of white Nikes that he was wearing that was not covered by the white cloth. Not sure how it happened, but I expect I should read about it in the papers soon enough. My dad who was travelling in the same bus but in the opposite direction, saw the body before it was covered, that he was a young Chinese man.

Found myself thinking what was his reaction when he knew he was going down and what his last thought were when he knew he couldn't make it. Was he thinking of his parents, his wife or the children he may have left behind.

Poor man. I hope the other motorcylists who saw the accident will realise that they have to be more careful when riding, and the car drivers who saw it, realise they do have to be more considerate because motorcylists are so much more vulnerable in accidents. How can they survive when crashing with the likes of cars, buses or trucks?

As my bus travelled away from the scene, I sent a prayer for him....

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BalaC

After a hiatus of more than 1 and a half years, I managed to finally step into a nightspot. Went BalaC with M and his bunch of friends after dinner at Marche.

Me and YL were totally bored. There is no dancing, and we thought people go there just to be seen. The women go there to hook themselves a rich banker, while the guys go there to be part of the hip cool crowd. It was crowded, very smoky and the live band was not that fantastic.

Saw a number of 'older' women who dressed like Britney with thick ICI. And men who dressed like they are the next big thing. I guess, some of the guys are not bad looking, but both of us were not comfortable as the whole place felt like a cosmopolitan social hunting ground. You look at me, I look at you, a lot of eye contact going around, and hey, before you know it, he's introducing himself to you and the rest is going to be Hotel 81. Only maybe for these people, it's the Ritz.

One good thing out of this was I found a new kaki to go chionging with me next time. As it turns out, YL is quite keen and hasn't have much luck herself finding someone with similar interest. We thought now we may take exotic dance lessons together and we plan to do Devil's Bar next Friday. Hehe!

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Tuesday, April 05, 2005

More inmates leaving

Sigh. 2 friends leaving the ship. Wonder when I can join their ranks. J was someone I intro to work here more than a year ago. She's leaving my former team because of the stress. Her resignation came one day after her boss tendered. So have to say my former place is really crappy. Waiting for my turn....
V was from another team in the same dept. Very nice gal. Her husband is relocating to Atlanta, so she has to go as well. I told her she should prepare a couple of guestrooms, since we'll be visiting her. From here, we can go Disneyland.

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Sunday, April 03, 2005

Don't let the sun come up

Cried on the way home just now. Was sheer torture thinking of the tomorrow to come. M tried to comfort me, but he can't really say much. If I quit, he will be supportive. On the other hand, he can't tell me to quit because I guess he doesn't want to have the responsibility should I cannot find a job soon. Or maybe he feels I cannot take hardship, and should face it take it more easy? If I have a choice, I also don't want to be a burden to him. It is so important for both of us to be saving now. To be not saving now means we cannot get together soon. And soon is not enough.

He told me to sleep early just now, but why? Why will I want to sleep early to make my weekend shorter and the sun come up earlier tomorrow?

I don't want to let anyone down, my boss or my colleagues. Most of all, I always feel I have to prove that I can take charge and do a good job. On the other hand, it has been a long time since I really feel happy about a job. Granted, it is not easy to love working, but then it shouldn't be something that saps your mood and your energy either.

Can't tell my parents, cos they wouldn't understand. More likely, they feel I cannot take hardship too. Especially when my brother has the same job since he graduated.

I do wish I get more support from M... To make me feel better. Wanted to confide more in him, get his opinion, sometimes I just want him to say things I want to hear. But he must mean them, and not say them to please me. With regards to my job, I guess it's not possible. It's quite clear how he feels cos he just asks me to sleep early.

Am I weak?

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Saturday, April 02, 2005

Fast forward

Had a late start today. Set my alarm clock for 9.30am, but fell back asleep when it rung. Next time I know, it was 11.30am already. And it was a very deep and restful sleep in a long time.

Went Mustafa, cos heard about it so many times since it went 24-7. Many stuff there, there's the old one and the new one. We went to both, and later the old one. M complaint he is suffocating and cannot breathe. It's not that bad lah, if you don't breathe in too deep. Must take shallow breaths.

Went to one of the Indian resturant for dinner. Had tandoori chicken and the briyani. Always wanted to eat tandoori again. Fondly remembered the work lunches I used to have at GS. Tandoori chicken sandwiches from either PanPac or Oriental. It comes with chips and the best brownie I ever had. The one here at this restaurant cannot compare. Should it be so dry? But M enjoyed the spicy potato and cauliflower very much.

He was very insulted when I said some of them are quite goodlooking. Like the one that came to my house to paint. Why I say he is ugly, stupid and lumbering bear, on top of being a vegetable when I find this kind goodlooking. Haha! He never let me forget... Love him so much!

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Friday, April 01, 2005

Aborted mission

Had lunch at Victor's today, new restaurant at Marina Square. Love it for the 30 types of ice-cream concoctions there. Had one with chocolate, coffee, and vanilla ice-cream. This one had crunchy coffee grounds and peanut butter added, was really good and sinful!

Supposed to go Thumper's tonight. M told me this morning when he was supposed to tell me later. He remembered in time that gals must dressed up very pretty to go chiong. So he now told me earlier. Alas, I wasn't already exactly dressed. By the time my work ended at 8+pm, I had also lost all mood and was too tired.

Ended up meeting ML, his wife, S and Monkey for dinner. M was not feeling good too, one of his headaches again. Very sorry, cos ML's wife was all dressed up to go. Think she wasn;t very happy we aborted the trip. But was really tired...

Maybe next week, when I had more notice and if I have a better week at work. Had a talk with my boss about the project situation. Asked me not to feel bad, dud! He's not even there to support me during the meeting, and when push comes to shove, he is still throwing me into the deep end. Forgetting all that I have told him. A#*hole!

posted by Meak Meak @ 10:24 PM 2 comments