Don't let the sun come up
Cried on the way home just now. Was sheer torture thinking of the tomorrow to come. M tried to comfort me, but he can't really say much. If I quit, he will be supportive. On the other hand, he can't tell me to quit because I guess he doesn't want to have the responsibility should I cannot find a job soon. Or maybe he feels I cannot take hardship, and should face it take it more easy? If I have a choice, I also don't want to be a burden to him. It is so important for both of us to be saving now. To be not saving now means we cannot get together soon. And soon is not enough.He told me to sleep early just now, but why? Why will I want to sleep early to make my weekend shorter and the sun come up earlier tomorrow?
I don't want to let anyone down, my boss or my colleagues. Most of all, I always feel I have to prove that I can take charge and do a good job. On the other hand, it has been a long time since I really feel happy about a job. Granted, it is not easy to love working, but then it shouldn't be something that saps your mood and your energy either.
Can't tell my parents, cos they wouldn't understand. More likely, they feel I cannot take hardship too. Especially when my brother has the same job since he graduated.
I do wish I get more support from M... To make me feel better. Wanted to confide more in him, get his opinion, sometimes I just want him to say things I want to hear. But he must mean them, and not say them to please me. With regards to my job, I guess it's not possible. It's quite clear how he feels cos he just asks me to sleep early.
Am I weak?
posted by Meak Meak @ 10:48 PM
1 Comments:
Girl u not only have M. U have me remember u always love to share a lot to me but seems to have no energy animore after this job!
*SIGH*
u are not weak.. is too much for u to handle alone n face it along.
When u shared u feel lighter
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