The Meak Muses

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Said he was sorry for ruining my year-end festivities and never meant to do that. Doesn’t want to talk, cos he feels is a dead-end. So he said stick to my initial short hammering message which is "Let's break up." Then I asked why doesn’t he focus on the subsequent 2 long msgs later about my feelings for him. Pls, let us talk. He replied "prefer not to."
What about my preference?

Told him I love him. That he has always been honest with me, so I will honestly tell him that.
Told him to only throw this r/ship away only if he has no more feelings for us.
No reply from him.

Doesn’t get it anymore. Really does his type take love so lightly as the Asian counterparts? Those things he said to me before are??

1) Hope I will be the last bf to meet your parents, when you feel I am the right one.

2) Haye you in my heart.

3) No guest, hopefully just me and you. (This, when he was renovating the top floor of his parents' house in Italy for himself).

4) Hope to add more positive points. Not rushing, have the rest of his lifetime for me to add positive points.

5) You have and are everything a guy could wish for, can’t really say the same for myself. And honestly, this scares me a bit.

6) I will really try to make it happen because after a long time I have someone special, someone I feel for in my life. (It - being making our r/ship last forever)

7) Looks like you were more successful to get into my heart, my mind and my dreams than me getting into yours. Nevermind, will keep trying.

8) Just wish you know my feelings are sincere and true. Kiss you goodnight and sorry for everything.

9) I must have really fallen in love with you now…

10) Meaning that if I was already not with you, I would be with another gal now (he was in Bangkok leisure trup). Instead, I'm happily chatting with my friends and not having any naughty thoughts or intentions cos, I have fallen in love with you.

11) Kiss you goodnight. If you were here… Just wish you to know that I really feel for you.

12) You are very precious to me so waiting is no issue my dear. (This when I told him I wasn’t ready for physical intimacy)

13) I truly wish that I can make you happy. And honestly one of my fears is what if I can’t meet your expectations.

14) You might be right, but my feelings wise, I am already too deeply involved not to think about it. (this when I told him I feel we are not right for each other.)

15) Don’t expect you to be in love with me at this stage. Just wish you will be one day.

So with all those above that he has said to me, and now this.. The silence he kept when I asked him to talk to me.. How can I bear to let things go? Let this r/ship go? At least if he is nasty with me and tells me he doesn’t love me anymore, but he doesn’t. If he is being such a dasturdly playboy, then he should be blunt about it..

Why???

posted by Meak Meak @ 2:00 PM