The Meak Muses

....... & I turned away

Missing him… so I thought I go to the same fc when he always go to for lunch..

At the entrance to the fc, I saw him immediately, as he sat facing me.. Suddenly I felt a pang of panic and dread.. What if he sees me? Will he smile, say hello? Smile reluctantly then turned away? Pretend not to see me? No longer will he tease me, or smile at me in that special way in a silent communication of 'hello, my dear". It would be more than I can bear… If he instinctively know that I has deliberately went there, it would just kill me what he would think...

I wanted to bravely walk pass him to buy from the stall I want.. But fear has frozen me.. Quickly, I turned away.. Before he could make out that it was me… Took a turnabout and ended up at the other entrance.. Bought something not very cheap and wholly something which I have no appetite of..

When I turned back, he and his colls were gone… Now the nasi padang is in front of me… I couldn’t even eat more than 10 bites…

posted by Meak Meak @ 1:34 PM