Depressing Sunay
Think my Sundays are always depressing now. Another bad hit of my pre-Monday blues today. Couldn't help worrying that I'll screw up the project, and that I have no time to devote to hobbies/classes I want to take up cos of long work hours.M tried to counsel me, but hard to tell him and make him understand everything. Guess he did gave me the g-ahead to quit if I really want. But I have to think of supporting my parents. He mentioned that I want to take the easy way out, which set me to thinking am I too weak and cannot take hardship.
For me, the answer, is quite not. After all, it's only a job and my benefits do not warrant that much stress and responsibility I'm shouldering on. Sigh, since my career luck is not very good. I have no difficulty finding jobs, but I seemed to attract those that are really the ultimate in challenges.
If I quit, I'll be letting my boss and colleagues down. Maybe even myself. Like the previous, I told myself to be stronger and tough it out. But end of the day, it's me and people around me who suffered cos I tend to bring my moods home. Needless to say, my boss has let us down too. But I do not really want to be a job-hopper and seen to be always taking the easy way out.
Would like to go Bakery diploma, but not sure if I can be good at it. Not easy to open and maintain a shop too. After all, M's sister had the experience. She should know.
Not young anymore, shouls pursue my dreams, but it's not clear what I really want. A few years earlier, I may have gone to dance school. Now, sigh........ If I start now, M's family and relatives may have a lot to say. Not a very respectable career...
posted by Meak Meak @ 10:40 PM
1 Comments:
pursue what u want.Work with passion.I can sense that u are always stress n pressure with work,esp the last time wen Z & me pick u up from wk.U are in tears.Heart pain for me leh.Girl CHeer up ok
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